To Readers Near and Far

diary

Like many girls, I had a diary as a child. That is where my deepest thoughts were kept. There were entries about various people, what they had done and how I felt about them. Some were friends and others family. It is also where I wrote my secrets.

People can be snoopy, especially siblings. Because of that, I knew that at any moment my diary could be found and read by those living in my home. The same people who I had written about on the pages inside. Therefore, I decided to post the following warning on the inside cover of my diary:

“To anyone who may read this diary – First of all, no one should be reading this. If you are, I apologize for whatever it may say that may upset you. This entire diary is full of my most personal feelings and things I have done that I want no one to know about. Many of which I regret. So if anyone is reading this, again I apologize and I want you to keep in mind that this is all from the past.” ~ written 1995

Even though this blog is on the world wide web and anyone can see it, at any given moment, the warning above still applies.

When I began this blog, it was for the purpose of helping me along my path toward self improvement. It was a place where I could learn myself, by being able to be myself. Out in the real world we are always trying to live up to the expectations of others. Out there, I try my best to be everything that I’m supposed to be. I put on the smile that everyone wants to see and the laughter people expect to hear.

In reality my life is pretty good, especially compared to how it could be. I have a great deal of things to be thankful for. However, I certainly don’t have it all put together and I doubt that I ever will. Learning is a life long journey. I needed a place where I could just be me. The inner me remains just that. On the inside and that gets tiring. She wants to live too.

On here, I don’t have to put on a smile if I don’t feel like it. I also have the liberty to share my thoughts and opinions openly. That’s something that is very difficult to do in the real world, because as much as people say they don’t judge you, they do. (That is why I have chosen to remain anonymous on this blog.) To my readers, if you judge me, you judge me. It bothers me to a degree, but it doesn’t have nearly the same impact as it does from those who I know personally.

To any snoopers who may drop by, this is my outlet. This is the inner me. The ‘me’ that I spend so much of my time keeping quiet, keeping hidden. She needs to breathe. She may be down one day, up the next. She may be opinionated and sometimes just strange. One thing is for certain, she’s going to speak what’s on her mind.

So as I said in my warning above, if you decide to read what is written here, “I apologize for whatever it may say that may upset you.” With that, be thankful that I have a place to breathe. This blog has been a tremendous help to me.

It’s also not all about selfish gain, because what I learn here is constantly being shared with those in my real life. Whether it be compassion, understanding, different perspectives or changing the way I respond to situations, other people benefit from this as well. It’s not all about me. It’s also about you, the reader – whoever you are.

As for my fellow bloggers – thank you. You have all had such a great impact on my life. You have taught me many things. You have changed my way of thinking. Through your posts, I have discovered my flaws and weaknesses. You have made me cry and you have made me laugh. I appreciate you. All of you.

21 Responses to To Readers Near and Far

  1. Peta Kaplan says:

    You are very courageous. Keep writing!

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  2. Abbie says:

    I love this page so much. This para here, could be me: “In reality my life is pretty good, especially compared to how it could be. I have a great deal of things to be thankful for. However, I certainly don’t have it all put together and I doubt that I ever will. Learning is a life long journey. I needed a place where I could just be me. The inner me remains just that. On the inside and that gets tiring. She wants to live too”.

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  3. Angie K says:

    This is exactly what blogging is about for me – an outlet… You can count me in now as one of your followers, I look forward to reading your posts. You are warmly invited to stop by, too, and maybe follow my blog back if you find something there interesting enough. Happy writing!

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  4. I love this. It’s so true what you say about life being a long time journey and these, our blogs, being a place to just be us. We all need that!

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    • mewhoami says:

      Yes we do! It’s so important to have our little space in this world where we can just be who we are. Plus, we get to learn along the way which makes our journey even that much better.

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  5. Monica Micaela says:

    I had a diary too, well I have owned quite a few to be honest. As much as I tried to keep it in a secure, safe place so that it could not be found… one of my family members always found it and clearly had to embarrass me in front of the whole family about what I had written. So I was discouraged from writing diaries from then one – after the many other failed attempts at hiding them away…. 😦

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    • mewhoami says:

      That’s terrible. I bet you were furious. Those are our most private thoughts. I cannot imagine them being read out loud or shared with my family, or practically anyone for that matter. Even today, after all these years, I wouldn’t want anyone to read my diary. I wouldn’t write in one anymore either if that had happened. That’s sad though. Writing is so cathartic.

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      • Monica Micaela says:

        I totally agree, and yes. I was very mad and felt rather humiliated. There were days I just wanted to get a book or something and write, but I would hold myself back and wouldn’t write anything. Purely because I was afraid someone would find it and read it. In writing I express myself and it gives me a sensation of relief and not doing that, made me really cross and mad.

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  6. This is an awesome disclaimer page! You may have just given me the courage to post on some topics I may have otherwise left unsaid… so thanks for that! Karen πŸ™‚

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    • mewhoami says:

      Thank you! I am glad I could help. πŸ™‚ I try to do the same, but I still find that I let my fear of exposure discourage me from writing all that I’d like to sometimes.

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  7. Hello. I stumbled on your blog from a comment that you left on a blog that I follow and if this is posted a second time, please forgive the repetition. I wasn’t sure if my first comment made it through. I can identify with what you wrote about having a need to express that which the outside world doesn’t know so much about and that was one of the motives for starting MY blog as well. I needed an outlet but have also gained a good number of friends. I look forward to reading more of your posts and intend to follow YOUR blog as well.

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    • mewhoami says:

      Hello! Thank you so much for dropping by. I hope that I didn’t miss your comment if you had left one earlier. I’ve noticed that sometimes I don’t get (or maybe I miss) notifications of new comments. I’m glad to know that you started your blog for much of the same reasons. It can be much easier to discuss our feelings and opinions on here than it can be to do so in person. Also, we can be real. We don’t have to wear a mask, with the exception of staying anonymous if we choose to. It is an excellent outlet and you’re right about the people. We have an amazing community here! Thank you so much for following! I just followed you as well.

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  8. I just came across your blog and already in love with it! You are a talented writer and I’m sure many would benefit from your wonderful posts πŸ™‚

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  9. Dahlia says:

    I can empathize with so much written here – ah the freedom of anonymity and the tremendous support from the blogosphere. Happy to have dropped in here.

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    • mewhoami says:

      Thank you, Dahlia, for dropping by. I’m glad that there are others out there who can relate to this. Being anonymous certainly does makes writing easier at times. Hope to see you around more often.

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