I’m a Runner

runnerI’m a runner. Not a physical runner, although I do enjoy it. I am a life runner.

From as far back as I can remember, I have run from my emotions, feelings, conflict and even my own happiness. The question is, why? The answer – fear. Life has shown me that emotions (feelings) inevitably cause pain, conflict is nerve-racking and happiness can be suddenly stripped away without warning. It is those end results that have always caused me to run.

However, recently I have learned that there are situations in life that you can’t run from. Circumstances occur which force you to face yourself and your fears. For several days now, I have been face to face with my emotions and with no way to escape them. For a runner this is terrifying, but certainly necessary and very helpful. Even though the circumstances have been grievous, this time has forced me to learn a great deal about myself. It is odd how such terrible circumstances can open your eyes to the true person within.

My name on this blog is mewhoami and for good reason. I have spent so much of my life running, that often times I question who I am and even where I am heading. But, I believe there comes a time in everyone’s life when they wonder the same thing about themselves. There is no denying however, that I know more about myself today than I did two weeks ago and for that I am thankful. Not thankful for what initially brought me to this place, but thankful for the insight.

Among the many things learned, one of the greatest of those is priorities. Jobs, income and responsibilities are necessary, but nothing in life is more important than the people you love. It may be overused, but the fact still remains that money, jobs and material objects cannot be taken with you. But love goes with you always. For this reason, the people we love should be our top priority.

Throughout this blog, I have often stated how we need to appreciate the time that we have with our loved ones and never take them for granted. When I look back over the years, I wish that I would have spent more time with the people I love and not wasted time on petty things. Furthermore, I wish I would have spent more time living life than running from it.

Life is full of choices and lessons. Sometimes the most important of these lessons are learned when we have no choice but to face our fears and ourselves. Although the circumstances that teach us may be difficult, the lessons are necessary. We can’t change the past, but we can apply these lessons to the future. Needless to say, running from them will certainly get us nowhere.

Lessons learned: Life is short. Keep your priorities straight. Don’t be afraid to face your emotions. Don’t spend your life with your head in the sand. Most importantly, take advantage of every moment you are given with those you love, because you may not have that chance tomorrow.

{This was written a little over a year ago, and is the first post I’ve ever re-posted. Many of you weren’t around back then, so this will be new to you. For those who’ve read it, please forgive the re-post.}

A fellow blogger wrote a post entitled, Tenacity. In that post, she asked “Do you have any examples of tenacity in your life?”

My answer was: “Tenacity takes a lot of self discipline. I’m a runner. Always have been. I run from life and life’s situations. Standing still and not running away during the hard times is a major challenge for me. That’s where I’m most tenacious in my life. Determined to overcome myself.”

Since her post filled me with many thoughts, some of which were already mentioned in the post above, I thought it would be best to just re-post this one.

I highly recommend that you visit Staci’s blog, and maybe even answer that question yourself. It’s certainly a thought-provoking question.

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17 Responses to I’m a Runner

  1. frankiedman says:

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  2. Khai says:

    You’ve inspired me to revel in introspection. Thank you for that.


  3. We need to be able to look into ourselves and face the fears, before the fear takes the power over our soul.

    One way to do that is by asking ourselves; what is the worst that can happen?
    The perspective helps to see, that everything is not so bad anyway.


  4. Love it! I love reading about life lessons 🙂
    So, do you feel you’ve made progress since you wrote it?


  5. April says:

    I’m a runner too, but I’ve decided to turn around and make myself look all big and scary and face that fear. Doing what you said–facing that fear instead of running requires a great amount of tenacity. Today, I scamper away from fear, but I then find ways to deal with it–or ignore it, whichever one I let control me. 😀


    • mewhoami says:

      I’d love to look all big and scary. Maybe I do, but it sure feels like my fear is shining through. Ignoring it may not make it go away all the time, but sometimes it does. I ignore too. Actually, I just try not to think about things. That seems to help.


      • April says:

        Yes, rose colored glasses come in handy, and if that doesn’t work, hiding my head in the sand is just as effective. As my nagging therapist would ask—what’s the worst thing that can happen. If I have an answer, she follows it up with a so what, what can you do about it? I hate when she makes me think.


  6. So true & such a great post!!! Many years ago I began to discover so much more about myself and became stronger when I started to face my fears and stop running.


    • mewhoami says:

      Thank you! Facing our fears is a great way to learn more about ourselves. It shows us that we are capable of much more than we often give ourselves credit for.


  7. stacilys says:

    Hey there. Ugh! I’ve been without internet since Friday afternoon and it’s still not fixed. I’m at my hubby’s office right now, trying to catch up. My internet stopped soon after I opened to this post so I couldn’t comment. Anyhow, thank you so much for such kind words and praises. I’m truly honored.
    Conflict, feelings and fear. A huge one for me. All my life I’ve tried to run from conflict. Why, our beloved friend, fear. My husband likes to face fear head on so that it doesn’t have any control over him. I, on the other hand, do just as you have said here, run. One thing I’ve learned over the years though is that feelings often deceive us. We can’t trust in our feelings. Imagine that. If we went solely off of feelings, nobody would stay married. Eek!
    Hahahahaha. You mentioned the name of your blog, “mewhoami”. I had literally read it before as is, “me-whoa-me”. So funny. My husband has often said that I’m so literal. Only now I realize it’s “Me Who Am I”.
    Thanks again. Glad we connected.


    • mewhoami says:

      Thank you for the reply, and no problem. I completely understand.As far as not trusting our feelings, you are absolutely right. Our feelings and following them, is often times why we find ourselves in difficult situations. I’ve learned the same and that is a large reason as to why I’m much slower to run than I used to be. Life gets tiring if you’re never willing to stand still.

      Haha! The name is a bit confusing. On my actual blog it’s spelled out and spaced. However, when I comment it’s just one big blurb of nonsense.


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