There are so many times that I sit down to write the thoughts that are rushing through my mind. I feel an urgency to release them. A few sentences are laid out and then quickly deleted, never to be written again. Why is this? Most of the topics would probably be interesting to readers. However, they would also be very honest and revealing. That is where my mind takes over and my fingers stop typing.
Earlier today, I was compelled to visit a blogger’s page because he proved that he wasn’t afraid to open up and share his weaknesses, struggles and fears. The simple fact that he was sincere with his words drew me in, to follow a blog that I may not normally have followed. He has a quality about him that often times I wish I had.
For me, it is difficult to write or even verbally discuss deep topics of the heart. To open up completely to anyone is terrifying to me, and I know that I am not alone in that. Most people are that way. There is a part of us that we keep hidden. It is our secret place. The place where we store our deepest emotions, thoughts, opinions, fears and memories. To open that up to a stranger, or even a loved one, takes a lot of courage that most people don’t have.
Sometimes I wish I had that courage. There are so many things that I would like to say. There are thoughts that have been stored inside me for years and never shared with a single soul. To share them would bring a great sense of release, but also the frightening realization that people would now “know” me. I don’t know if I want to be fully known. That’s a scary thought.
How about you? Do you reveal yourself completely?
What would people think if they knew the inner you? Would they still like you? Would it change their opinion of you? Do you care?